First look at Project Sansar, the next virtual world Linden Lab is working on

Jo Yardley's Second Life

During his speech at the SVVR (Silicon Valley Virtual Reality) Conference & Expo Ebbe talked a bit about Second Life, mentioning again some interesting (but not new to most of us) facts and figures, spoke of how The 1920s Berlin project was one of his favourite sims (hurrah!) and again had to tell everyone there that I am such a cry baby.

I never cry but when I explored my sim with the Oculus Rift for the first time and saw the Zeppelin fly over, something I’ve been dreaming about ever since I was a little girl, I did shed a little tear 😉

Most interesting to us was of course his talk of Project Sansar (working title), the next virtual world Linden lab is working on.
And Ebbe showed the first image related to Sansar.
Even though this was just a picture, not a screenshot or anything, it is still…

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What A Weird Week It’s Been – But, Hey, I’ve Finally Woken Up From Cyberspace Cryosleep!

It has been a crazy week full of ups & downs, but my big news is that I was FINALLY able to purchase a (refurbished) laptop, which means I can finally devote more time to getting down with some art that requires some heavy-duty computer processing power.
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Except that I don’t have a lot of time at the moment — my big move to the west coast is only about 5 weeks away.  Between now and then, I still have a TON of stuff to do.

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Nobody Cares About the Poor and the Mentally Ill People of This World

As I sit and type this, my old laptop is probably in its death throes.

I had been playing a stupid browser game, and it got slow and laggy and I noticed that the laptop’s monitor started sort of flashing — and it looks as if there is a semi transparent double image of what’s on the screen that shifts a bit, sort of blinking.  It’s hard to describe.  I’ve tried various ways to fix this and nothing has helped.

Seems like a minor annoyance, right?  Shit, something broke — guess I better get it repaired, or buy a new one.  Except that when you’re living in poverty, EVERY seemingly minor mishap becomes a huge, horrible crisis, because you don’t have the money to deal with said mishap.  And dealing with crisis over crisis really, really can wear a person down, and seriously affect their mental health, especially if they’re already dealing with mental and emotional problems.

I’m tired of being ignored and brushed aside because I am afflicted with anxiety, depression, and PTSD.  I’m fucking tired of being told to look on the bright side and to stop focusing on negativity.  Nobody wants to give a fuck about people with mental issues unless they make some sort of recovery, or overcome some sort of obstacles despite their illness & the hardships that come with it.  Or if they make their story into something cute and funny like Hyperbole and a Half.  So, unless someone’s struggles have a happy ending, the general public doesn’t want to acknowledge those people suffering, at all.  If they acknowledge you at all, it’s to point out that it’s all your fault somehow, and/or that you’re not trying hard enough.

I think a friend of mine said it best —

“We don’t do mental health in the US. I mean, not just that we don’t do it right, we really don’t do it at all.”

And she’s right.  It makes me angry — so fucking angry.

Prepping for the Student Show

I finally made it to school to work on matting my Slaughterhouse-Five-themed artworks for the upcoming Student Arts Showcase.  Mentally/emotionally, it was not easy for me to be there.  But at least I have something to show for it now.  I’ll have to go back later in the week to mat my digital self-portraits to foamcore because they’re too large to be matted with the materials we have.

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Baltimore and Institutionalized Violence

Mandatory reading.

Jason Weixelbaum Publications and Research

Storm clouds over Baltimore around 6:30pm Monday, April 27 2015. Storm clouds over Baltimore around 6:30pm Monday, April 27 2015. Flames and broken glass intentionally left out.

Baltimore is in the thoughts of many people all over the world today. Last night’s violence is now another page in the annals of the often tragic relationship between black people and the police in the United States.

I am a historian of institutionalized violence and I live in Baltimore. It is impossible for me to stand aside and not reflect on recent events. Indeed, if there were ever important roles for a historian to play in troubled times – reflection is probably chief among of them. I study many things: science & technology, economic and political history, the history of war and genocide in Nazi Germany, and many other related subjects. Even though it is not my area of specialization, when you pursue multiple advanced degrees in US history, a considerable amount…

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Today Has Been Canceled, But Here, Have Some Art [Redux]

Here are the student artworks I would have matted today for an upcoming show at my school — if it had not been for my anxiety.

For what it’s worth, I’m going to post a preview of those works.  All of these were completed in my Independent Study illustration course (which I created myself) in the Fall 2014 (and my final) semester. I don’t have really great pictures of the non-digital ones, unfortunately — some haven’t been scanned yet for higher-res images, and one is too big to scan anyway.  Add a potato quality camera phone, and… well, they won’t look as good as they will in person.  Eh, I guess most art is like that anyway, right?

Posted in the chronological order in which they were created.

Project #1: Photo reproduction combining 2 artworks and/or photos

project 1 finished

‘The Ritual’ 22.5 in. X 36 in. Marker, and Prismacolor pencils on bristol paper; approx. 34 hours. Tough to get a decent picture of this because of its size.

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Moving: It’s An Adventure [Part 3]

It has been a trying day.

I think I pretty much have the book-packing under control.  I’m shipping off the books I want to keep box by box (the rest are being sold on Ebay and/or via tag sale); some of my more treasured books (autographed copies, etc.) will be traveling with me.

My next plan of action has been to go through my closet and get serious about sorting out my clothes — what to keep, what to donate, what to throw away.  Of the clothes I am keeping, I wanted to also sort out the bare minimum of what I want to keep here, and what I will be shipping out west.

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Stretching My Legs

The weather is FINALLY getting nicer in New England, which is making it easier for me to work toward my goal of getting more physically active.  Today was a beautiful day for a walk.  This was my first visit to the canal trail since last year.

Hardly anything is green yet, but I’m not complaining.

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Old tobacco barns in the distance. One of the landmarks I’ll miss about moving out of CT.

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