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Moving: It’s An Adventure (Part 6)

Moving Milestone:

Today I finished shipping all the boxes of books, CDs and DVDs.  I think.  There may be some stragglers that I dig up when I finish up with my packing, but… Yeah, it’s pretty much done.  The pics here are only a portion of what I shipped — I think in all, there were about 10 boxes.  And I still had to leave behind/sell/donate a lot of things.  😦  Well, I took the most important stuff, anyway.

I still have a lot of my stuff for sale on Ebay. —> LINK

AND I am still accepting donations to financially help us with the move. —> LINK

ANY and ALL help is extremely appreciated!!

Moving: It’s An Adventure (Part 5)

It has been well over a month since my last update, and Moving Day is only 12 days away.  I am both excited and extremely anxious & sad about it.

What a whirlwind this past month has been.  Among the things that have happened in the last 30 days or so:

I’ve had the student art showcase at school, some doctor’s appointments, got my hair done, celebrated my 10th Second Life anniversary (aka my Rez Day), spent time cat-sitting, went to a couple of local theatre productions, had my graduation ceremony, (finally) had a (pretty successful) yard sale, went to a going-away party hosted for me by some dear friends, spent bonding time with my family, discovered that one of our outdoor/stray cats had died unexpectedly…  In between I’ve been packing like crazy, selling things on Ebay & local town classifieds.  Trying to sell the big items, my car & my exercise bike, sometime this week.  All the while, the process has become more complicated due to major road construction on my street.  Great timing.

My self-portrait diptych, ‘Hyper-Sentient_Self’ (archival inkjet print), 28×44″

Swanky doctor’s office

Neb’s 10th Rez Day

Neb’s 10th Rez Day

Cat sitting for Mr. Clover ❤

My graduation cap. Yes, I did use glitter. Yes, I did get it everywhere. Design is based on a painting I did, with a quote by my patron saint, VvG

Graduation panorama

Graduation ACC 002

Class of 2015!

I was awarded the President’s Medallion for Academic Excellence for achieving a perfect 4.0 GPA

Yard Salin’

Friends around the fire ❤

RIP Chewy 😦

Car 4 sale 😦

Construction

This week is crunch time.  I have to actually finish packing, for real.  I’ve been putting the rest of it off, because I am still somewhat in denial about the idea that I will never live in this house again in less than two weeks.  All of the things that make my room look like my room (the things hanging on the walls, etc) will have to come down.  It’s a weird feeling.  I’m excited for the adventures ahead of me, but also very traumatized about leaving behind my loved ones who live here on the east coast.

More updates soon, hopefully!

What A Weird Week It’s Been – But, Hey, I’ve Finally Woken Up From Cyberspace Cryosleep!

It has been a crazy week full of ups & downs, but my big news is that I was FINALLY able to purchase a (refurbished) laptop, which means I can finally devote more time to getting down with some art that requires some heavy-duty computer processing power.
Nebby returns to SL_001
Except that I don’t have a lot of time at the moment — my big move to the west coast is only about 5 weeks away.  Between now and then, I still have a TON of stuff to do.

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Today Has Been Canceled, But Here, Have Some Art [Redux]

Here are the student artworks I would have matted today for an upcoming show at my school — if it had not been for my anxiety.

For what it’s worth, I’m going to post a preview of those works.  All of these were completed in my Independent Study illustration course (which I created myself) in the Fall 2014 (and my final) semester. I don’t have really great pictures of the non-digital ones, unfortunately — some haven’t been scanned yet for higher-res images, and one is too big to scan anyway.  Add a potato quality camera phone, and… well, they won’t look as good as they will in person.  Eh, I guess most art is like that anyway, right?

Posted in the chronological order in which they were created.

Project #1: Photo reproduction combining 2 artworks and/or photos

project 1 finished

‘The Ritual’ 22.5 in. X 36 in. Marker, and Prismacolor pencils on bristol paper; approx. 34 hours. Tough to get a decent picture of this because of its size.

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Moving: It’s An Adventure [Part 3]

It has been a trying day.

I think I pretty much have the book-packing under control.  I’m shipping off the books I want to keep box by box (the rest are being sold on Ebay and/or via tag sale); some of my more treasured books (autographed copies, etc.) will be traveling with me.

My next plan of action has been to go through my closet and get serious about sorting out my clothes — what to keep, what to donate, what to throw away.  Of the clothes I am keeping, I wanted to also sort out the bare minimum of what I want to keep here, and what I will be shipping out west.

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“You’re Not Going to Be a New Person, You’re Still Going to Be You”

When I visited my therapist a couple of days ago, I told her that I hoped my move to Washington would be a transformational experience for me.  I’ve been stuck in a rut here for a long time.  I’ve been an emotional & mental train wreck for the past… well, forever. I need to resume better eating & exercise habits.  I’ve been able to motivate myself to do it before, and I need to do it again.  I’m not getting any younger, and the older I get, the harder it’s going to be for me to get where I need to be.  But anxiety and depression — largely caused by my current home — has me feeling confined, trapped, and unable to move forward.

She told me, flat out,

“You’re not going to magically become this new person when you move out there.  You’re still going to be you.”

Of course, she didn’t mean that in a negative way.  She wasn’t suggesting that change is impossible.  Rather, she wants me to assess the situation for what it really is.  She explained that yes, the change in my living arrangements is most likely a very positive thing, and it can lead to many improvements for me.  But all of my inner problems are not going to just disappear.  And I shouldn’t expect them to, because it would set me up for a big letdown.

Which makes perfect sense to me.  Back in 2003, when I first moved into my current residence, I had that mind-set.  Prior to that, I had been living a miserable, cramped, no-privacy existence for eight years at my grandmother’s house.  I thought that moving into a new home would free me, that I’d be like a phoenix rising from ashes, that I’d be this completely shiny brand new person.  But, I wasn’t.  My life fell apart in other ways after that.  The disappointment that I was NOT a “new” person who was suddenly happy and fulfilled added to my despair and only made things worse.  Instead of being able to appreciate the new improvements that moving did for me (a bigger house, more room, more privacy, fewer aggravating people to live with), I was really let down that I was not magically happy.  It took me a few years to pull myself out of that funk.

One of the good things that came out of that miserable time is that I found Second Life.  In May of 2005, I think I read a short blurb about it in a magazine — I can’t even remember which one.  It was, quite honestly, just the thing I needed.  I’ve never really been a gamer, but have been known to occasionally really, deeply latch onto a game every now & again.  I was obsessed with Animal Crossing for awhile, and logged many, many hours playing Morrowind on my roommate’s Xbox.  It was just about the time I was getting tired of Morrowind that I first created my Second Life account.

*Nostalgia* -- Neb in Blue (circa November 2005)

6-month old Neb, in November 2005

So, in a way, I did become a new person.

Through my avatar, I learned a lot about myself.  But I was not a completely different person in the way I had anticipated becoming when I moved.  I was still ME — but by spending time logged into Second Life as my cyberspace-self, I was able to deepen my introspection.  I learned to grow and to become stronger.  I learned how to accept and make peace with certain things about myself that I had been blocking out for a long time.  I learned more about relationships, both friendly and romantic.  I learned a lot about being an artist, too.  I have not cured all of my problems, but some of them have gotten less severe.

When I finally get to my new home in Washington, I will try to keep in mind that, yes, I will still be ME — moving to a new place will not be a magic wand of change.  However, I will have new experiences and opportunities that can help me to grow and change for the better.

*Postscript:  Moving is expensive as hell, and you can help me to raise money AND reduce the amount of stuff I have to bring with me by buying some of my items on Ebay.  Or, by passing it along to people you think might want some of it.  Most items are books, but I have a few Children’s DVDs too.  Subject matter: Art, craftmaking, photography, New Age/Wicca/Pagan items, blank journals, cookbooks, graphic novels, psychology, movies & film, poetry, collecting, animals, fiction/literature, science fiction, fantasy, humor.  ALL CHEAPLY PRICED. Have a look!

—->  http://www.ebay.com/sch/nebulosus_severine/m.html

Moving: It’s an Adventure [Part 2]

My deadline for packing is only about 2 weeks away, and I feel like there is still so much I need to do.

Progress has been really slow because:

  • I need more boxes (which my roommate brings home from work for me periodically);
  • I need to obtain some plastic storage bins, but I can’t really afford to buy them so I am putting the word out that I am in search of ones that people are willing to donate or sell to me for really cheap;
  • I need more actual ROOM to arrange and organize my stuff.  The house I live in now is very crowded and cluttered (one of my roommates is a pack rat).  Most of what I own is crammed into my bedroom, or stuffed into the basement somewhere.  I have been putting aside a bunch of stuff I intend to sell (via yard sales/Craigslist), but I literally only have a few square feet of space in which to do that.

I had intended to do more today, but I had a rough time at my therapist’s this morning, and once I was home I didn’t want to go out again.  So today was spent partially going through my closet, weeding out a bunch of clothing I don’t want (and remarking to myself, ye gods, I actually used to wear that?!), setting aside some stuff for donations, and a few things to sell.  I also cleaned a bit around my desk, got rid of a ton of old paperwork I don’t need anymore, and consolidated a lot of my important paperwork (birth certificate, etc.).

One of the things I originally had planned to do today was drop off a box of art supplies.  Yesterday, I went through all of my art supplies and thinned it out.  Unfortunately, I will have to leave a lot behind and can only take the basic essentials.  I saved one medium-sized bin of things, but the rest is going to be donated to my school for future art students who might need them.  Most of my oil paints and a few blank canvases are already at Peri’s, so that’s something at least.  It sucks, but I can’t afford to bring everything with me.

I also need to make yet another trip to the post office.  I’ve sold a few things on Ebay (<— link there for anyone interested), and I need to mail another box of my books to my new address.  Box #1 has made it there safely, and Box #2 is on its way, hopefully.

I think I need to also finally visit the local food shelf tomorrow so that I can get at least SOME of my food for free.  I only make about 40 bucks a week, and I need all the money I can get for my current bills and moving expenses.  And I think I need to take a walk and meditate, too, because the stress has really been wearing me down.

Hard to believe that in less than 2 months, I should be on the road and heading to my new home.

Ebay Update

Because I’m am moving to WA state soon, I’m trying to raise all of the money I can get, PLUS I really need to seriously downsize everything. I changed my Ebay user name recently to make it more consistent with my other social media. I am selling Wicca/pagan items, blank journals, children’s DVDs, art and craft books, sticker books, etc. I’ve sold a few things already! More to be listed soon. Please have a look, and also share this page if you want to help.

Items for sale from nebulosus_severine